INTROVERT

I don’t know if I am but I have heard a lot about this word, surprisingly people dedicated it to me. I grew up in a very orthodox family still I grew as if I am a princess. Though every girl grows as a princess, it’s not new. But I feel sometimes it becomes hectic to be treated as a princess but not as prince. I always had this warrior and I literally wanted to be a boy who can do anything without any hesitation (riding bike at night, going for night studies, partying hard with friends, wearing any kind of clothes, etc.) but fortunately I became girl. Trust me it’s not easy where you go through mensus every month, not only that the period cramps are disaster. Also something I am familiar during the growth period of mine was about the skin colour. I was fair enough but got the almond/dusky colour gradually. I am very proud of my colour. But the problem is whenever I used to go to my village everyone used to poke and say your skin colour has gone dark. Try to maintain it. It doesn’t bother me now but the initial time, the age at which I didn’t realize the difference between skin colours (the royalty hidden behind the fair skin colour), I lost confidence. But you know what it took me just 3 days to forget about that incident. Not even that when I changed my school and locality, I started gaining weight. I didn’t realize earlier but people surrounding me made me realise that you can be body shammed any time anywhere. But trust me I was not bothered. Huh , because I was not a foodie and all I could do at that time was to change my lifestyle a bit . But it’s fine I was happy then because i realised you become more messier with the mess you create in your mind.